Another year has gone and a new year is here.
Years just pass. Yesterday, I was doing some mathematic questions and the last time I learnt them, I was 17. It has been 24 years since I touched a mathematic question. I could not remember the formulas. Time goes and I was 20, then 30 and now 40.
In 2024, I did not do anything special. I did not learn how to ski. I did not learn how to swim in the open sea. I don't think I will be pursuing any of those. I decided that I will study again instead for a change in my career. I wanted to do something totally different. I took night classes and studied Society Knowledge, a compulsory subject that all students here need to study and pass. I passed with an A. It was in Swedish too. I was damn proud of myself. I learnt a lot from this subject, but unfortunately, I could not apply for my desired program because the university parked me in a category where they have never weighed in the applicants - Other applicants. What a joke. The next alternative is to take the high school exam where students here take if they don't get sufficient points after school. Hence, my need to learn mathematics again. Thankfully, I love maths but the language in Swedish does not make it easier for me. Heck, I learnt maths in Malay Language! Not even English. The high school exam includes language questions. My Swedish comprehension is nowhere near advanced level. When I tried some of the questions, I was dumbfounded by the words that I have never seen before.
Oh boy, studying is going to be challenging. But I am going to do it. Because I am not going to live in 'what-ifs'. Because I want to do something different and relevant, where AI cannot replace. I am not going to give up.
2025 will be the year if I make a change in my career. To study instead. When I moved here, I was keen to find a job. I learnt Swedish and dammit, I got a job. I became financially independent, my goal achieved. I am now ready to get out of my comfort zone again. I am not afraid to start again because that is what I did when I moved to Sweden. I know how it felt. I went through it and I know I am ready to start from bottom again.